I Care a Lot about the Way I Look
Whilst I don’t spend hours applying makeup in front of the mirror, I do ensure that I look somewhat presentable before stepping out of the house. This can be a struggle on bad days, but still I try. Why?
I have spent a lot of time in hospitals, sharing my personal space with the old, sickly, dying and dead. Once, I saw an old woman scratching her armpits while being nasty to everyone around her. It struck me that I was becoming her mirror image; I didn’t recognise myself anymore, even detested it.
How had I arrived at that state? I had been suffering for an extended period of time by then, and had become sick of being sick. The unpredictability was frustrating and worst of all, there was no hope of better days on the horizon.
A Gradual Decline
That bitter core that we had tapped into didn’t happen overnight. It is always a gradual process, the kind that happens in dribs and drabs, so that you never feel the harshness of a direct blow. It begins with the thought, ‘just for today’, which ends up becoming a regular affair. The first layer is the physical one – our appearances and how we present ourselves to the world.
When that layer peels away for whatever reason – pain, exhaustion, grief – beneath it lies the more vital layers of emotional and psychological well being. When we allow these layers to be defiled by whatever it was that tore the top off, we begin that slow journey of degenerating into an inhuman version of ourselves.
When we arrive at that state, we no longer care if we are nasty towards others, appear ungrateful or crude. Often that behaviour is a reflection of how we’re feeling on the inside. So if you meet someone unpleasant, it might be that they are going through a difficult time.
It is a Mental Exercise
Our physical appearances are visible, unlike the unseen problems festering beneath the skin. It is one thing we can improve, a mental exercise that can be tougher than it looks at times.
This layer may be a superficial one, and of course I let it slip now and then when the pain is too much to bear. But I have also learned that the longer I can fight to keep this layer on, the slower I unravel into that bitter core.
So that is why I try.
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*Note: This article is based on personal experiences and meant for educational purposes. It is not to be substituted for medical advice. Please consult your own doctor before changing or adding new treatment protocols.
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- For More Insight:
- The Importance of Looking Good to Feel Good (bladder-help.com): https://goo.gl/wy2ibF
- Why I Always Put on Makeup, Even When I’m Struggling With Fatigue (themighty.com): https://goo.gl/jtL7EE