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January has been a pretty tough month for me, in terms of life changes of the ‘normal’ kind. At least no new health issues to add to the list for now, hey? 😉 I’ve had to adjust to many lifestyle changes, but this new routine should settle down soon enough. After all, we were made to adapt and survive as human beings 🙂
In continuation to the prompt above, I hope to gain some clarity and answers as to which direction I should move towards in life. Like I said in January’s linkup, I feel like I’ve been drifting on an open ocean aimlessly for far too long. Now’s the perfect time to do something about it, being a ‘new year’ and all, hey?
Sometimes change is brought about through action, and at other times it means to wait things out with patience. It’s a combination for me this time, as I hit the pause button on certain things, and the play button on others. Kind of like an ‘experiment’, if you will, to see what impacts and thus matters to my life more. This might take me a few months to decipher, but as they say, time will tell!
I haven’t had a real job for years, but of late I’ve been seeking more opportunities out. I’m fresh on the web development scene again, so I need to familiarise myself with it, and ‘fight’ for jobs if I want to survive in the competitive world of freelancing. Hopefully as time goes by I will manage to regain a foothold, and balance things out a little. For now, I will have to just take it as a reorientation and learning process.
If you’ve noticed a little more silence from me on the blogging side of things, this is why. I have limited energy to spare with chronic illness, so for now I’m putting work as my number one priority every day including some weekends.
It actually feels good to be negotiating and earning some form of salary again. Time will tell if this is sustainable, because my body tends to protest after three months or so of working any job, and I’m starting to feel fatigued already. Pacing will have to be my closest ally during this period; no one else can take care of me except me, for matters such as this.
I’ve also been trying to get out of my bubble. You may have read in my previous linkups that I enjoy spending time alone, but to my surprise even I have a limit for that. Years of isolation can have a negative effect on your mental health, no matter how much you enjoy being on your own.
I’ve actually been craving for more human connection, and have been putting in a little more effort to seek this out. I’m trying to befriend and interact with people from totally different circles, so that I can expand my perspectives even more. I would also like to rekindle or maintain certain friendships that matter to me.
I would like to awaken my passion for life and feel alive again. Being semi-depressed all day every day is no fun, and no way to live out the rest of my life. Whilst a large part of these mental issues are unavoidable due to my illnesses and medications, I am also responsible for the things within my control. They may not be much, but every little bit counts, and sometimes it’s that last tiny boost that propels you forward and upward.
I want to desire life again. I want something worth fighting for. Yes I know I advocate for certain issues through my blog, but I need even greater personal purpose within my own life. I’m going to let myself go in February, and let life lead the way. I’ll let you know where I end up, if I arrive anywhere at all 😉
Thank you for reading, and I hope to read your responses for February’s prompts too! Click here to submit your own entry, and to read about what others are up to as well!
*Note: This article is meant for educational purposes and is based on the author’s personal experiences. It is not to be substituted for medical advice. Please consult your own doctor before changing or adding any new treatment protocols.
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