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I’m late to my own party this month, partially because I was on a fairly last minute getaway to Bangkok! It was an easy going, relaxing one, even though my friend from Berlin booked the wrong flight and arrived a day late… 🤨Needless to say I was a bit annoyed, especially since I took an early flight to meet him at the airport. I had to wake up at 4am, when there are about 10 flights available throughout the day. In any case, I will not complain because I know it’s a privilege to even be able to travel, and to be able to manage on my own despite the aches. With chronic illnesses we tend to need a full day to recover from any flight anyway, be it short or light haul, so I just took the day off alone to rest.
I will also be flying off to Berlin for a few months on a flexible ticket on New Year’s Day itself (cheapest!). Thankfully it was easy enough to reschedule all my medical appointments thanks to my supportive team of doctors, although being away from them for so long is unnerving. This will be quite the adventure for me, having always wanted to live in Europe, at least for a while.
I am having problems with travel insurance, as none of them will take someone with pre-existing conditions for such a long period of time. At most it’s a month of coverage. So it’s quite a risk as well; although having read through all their policies, none of the coverages are really that great anyway, even for a healthy person, should you require admission to a hospital. My only hope is that I don’t end up in a life threatening situation at the A&E overseas, more so because of the cost than anything else. I am willing to put up with pain, the loss of my support network, and other unknowns, in exchange for this travel opportunity.
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I was also delighted to arrive home from Bangkok to the excited squeals from my birds. Scorcher hasn’t whistled or spoken in months, ever since he became a daddy of eight. All that frantic feeding and upbringing must have made him jaded. But that day he whistled in victory, and screamed every single word or sentence I’d ever taught him into my ear. Even shy Stella was squealing away happily. That really warmed my heart up. Birds are cuter than you think (and also messier)! I am going to miss them whilst in Berlin, and will try to spend more time bonding with them before I leave.
Singapore is hot and humid year round, which I find unpleasant. I really hate the feeling of stickiness on my skin. With the arrival of the cooler, rainy season however, comes more fatigue and joint aches. I still find it more preferable however; surprisingly I find such weather soothing, not depressing.
I am not sure how my body will react to Berlin’s winter, but I’m game to find out. I know I’ll need lots of hot teas, coffee, blankets and layers to keep me warm. Whilst winters may be miserable, warming up and getting cosy can be a wonderful feeling, too. Share your best chronic illness winter tips with a summer girl like me in the comments below! 😉
When I go to Berlin, I will be leaving all familiarity and support behind. It will be a leap of faith, a huge change in environment and culture, and so much more. Whether I end up liking the experience or not, I am of the mindset that any travel experience – good or bad – is a useful one in the end. Like I wrote in my ‘About’ page, there is no such thing as useless knowledge, only complex structure.
I know that I will need to be more independent whilst there in several ways. Singapore really spoils you with all the convenience; something I’m aware of having grown up in Hong Kong. Apart from getting around, I will need to learn how to cope with the cold, and also new ways of pacing. Pain will probably manifest in different ways.
I also hope to make some new friends and meet many locals. All whilst still trying to build my business up and find work online. Technically my everyday computer tasks would be the same as in Singapore – work hunting, blogging, etc. But I would also like to spend some time exploring the city, vicinity and people. How much I can explore will depend on how much I manage to earn on an ad-hoc basis. As you can see, I’m going there with huge limits, but it’s an opportunity of a lifetime that I’m not missing out on! 😉 With chronic illness, all you can do is one thing at a time, and take one step at a time.
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It’s been a whirlwind of a year, and the ending is no different. Life is swirling in scattered pieces all around me; fortune cookie letters waiting to be picked and interpreted, if I can. I think I’ve reached a stage in my chronic illness life where I’m not struggling to grab a piece, or fighting to pick the piece that I want. Instead I’m just standing still, and waiting for the pieces to flutter upon my feet, whatever they may be. I will then pick them up at the right moments, and read them. Their foretelling will be obscure, as always. I only need to interpret them in a manner that’s best for me. Sure, some things are set in stone. But there is bound to be a river I can still choose to float my stone down, back to the big ocean where we all finally end up in.
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*Note: This article is meant for educational purposes and is based on the author’s personal experiences. It is not to be substituted for medical advice. Please consult your own doctor before changing or adding any new treatment protocols.
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