Oh my March. Time is a droplet of history, encapsulated in a bullet going at the speed of light. I feel like I haven’t met any of my goals at all, and by this time I’m close to the three month mark of being in Berlin. I am closer to being back in Singapore now than ever before! Which isn’t a pleasant feeling as I love the winter season here. Yet, I’m also looking forward to nuzzling and cuddling my birds once more. I’ve missed them quite a bit; hope they aren’t too angry with me for abandoning them for so long!
I haven’t really done anything too touristy, and have just been living here as if I were back in Singapore, save for the change in location. I suppose it’s a different vibe when you travel to a new place for a short time, as opposed to a few months. So far I’ve been to the Museum Island, the East Side Gallery, a few nice bars and people’s homes. I’ve spent a lot of time indoors, but am content with that.
Another strange fact – I have yet to make a single German friend here. I know, right?! I’ve met people from everywhere else – France, USA, UK, Australia, Ireland, Pakistan, the Netherlands, India, Spain, etc. Then again, Germans in other parts of Germany tell me that Berlin is not quite Germany :p The only German I’ve really interacted with at any length was an iTalki teacher I had for two lessons online.
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Speaking of which, I think I did quite a lot in the past couple of weeks, as we were visiting family for a week in France. Flights, as all of us chronic illness people know, are evil. I tried illustrating it to my partner with my half filled water bottle on the flight. As we were descending, it was getting all squeezed and sucked in from the air pressure. I told him that was how my bones felt like whenever I take a flight, no matter how long or short the ride is.
Anyway, Toulouse was a pleasant little city and I enjoyed strolling along the cobblestoned streets. Speaking of which, my oh my, all the food, the glorious food on arrival! Every street corner had chocolates, cheese, wine, saucisson, and yumminess galore! This is quite in contrast to Berlin. The greedy foodie in me was much satisfied.
We stayed at my partner’s mum’s place for a couple days and it was so homely and cosy. Her cat, Kimmie, was the cutest. She loved nuzzling noses and rubbing heads. It’s always nice to have a furry friend at home. It’s too bad that I can’t afford a cat or dog at home, as I can barely take care of myself financially as it stands.
We also visited San Sébastien in Spain for a day trip, which was a short drive away. And lucky we were; it was the only sunny day for our entire stay there. I kept thinking, ‘this is how life should be’, as we spent our day together with quality family time. Sangria (for the rest) and thick Spanish hot chocolate for me, whilst live music played nearby. After which we had their famous tapas/pintxos for lunch, then visited the beautiful aquarium. Strolling around the town and seaside was super pleasant, too. I think I could live in a simple place like this and be happy.
And then of course, chronic illness had to get jealous and whipped my ass for an entire week. On the way back to Berlin, I barely slept for two days straight as I was up all night pacing in pain. I think I caught a UTI somewhere along the way, and just took antibiotics as it was burning, and we had much travelling to do. I also vomited at the airport, so that was really no fun. I am however, grateful that I had my partner there to support me.
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#sickselfie. Up all night in pain, aching everywhere, and vomitted into a Starbucks paperbag at the airport. How classy ?? I just wanted to post some #badday pics apart from the #goodday ones. . Chronic illness is like a shadow that trails you no matter where you go. All you can do is to hope for the clouds to pass and for the noon sun to come. May the shadow hide itself for a while. . . . . . #achronicvoice #chronicpain #chronicillness #chroniclife #chronicfatigue #chronicillnessawareness #spoonie #spooniestrong #spoonies #spoonietravels #spoonietravel #spooniecommunity #spooniesisters #spoonielife #spoonieliving #airport #vomiting #chronicallyill #sick #keepitreal
As for targets, I just clinched a new web development job, and am excited about it. It’s a nice change from writing jobs every now and then. The timeline will be a little more strict, but I believe I can do this.
Apart from that, I am also working on my new business site (it’s taking much longer than I had imagined), due to the fact that I’m stuck with carving out my services and exact niche. I am also reading up more on internet marketing and affiliate sales, and trying to push myself to do all these boring but necessary stuff (to me at least!).
Anyway, I’ll prioritise my client’s job first, and target to get my website out asap next. The book I’ve been reading on internet marketing has been somewhat helpful, and helps to give me a better idea of how I should carve my little corner of the web out next.
Finally, I think I’ve put on some winter weight, ha! Whilst it hasn’t been super cold in Berlin, it’s been an excuse for me to indulge in raclette, fondue, saucisson, cheese, and whatnot. I’ll just take it as a special, long holiday!
I remember my childhood back in Hong Kong, where I’d also put on some belly fat during winter even as a child. It used to be much colder back then, before the global warming rise in temperature. Anyway I’m not too worried as I’ll be back to sunny Singapore soon. For now, eat and as they say, ‘there’s more of me to love’ for now 😉
So I’m going to be as stress-less as I possibly can from now until I go back home (and hopefully after as well!). I’ll enjoy what I can, when I can. It’s a good way to be in life. I suppose after you’ve gone through a bad period or a bad pain flare, it’s easier to look at things that way for a while. It lends some perspective.
One thing I’m definitely not looking forward to when I get back in April – all the doctor appointments stacked back to back, week after week, that I’ve held off for the past three months. It will be a full month of hospital visits and with the coronavirus running rampant, let’s hope it’s not too much of a hassle. Anyway, I’ll find out when I’m back. For now, I’ll just enjoy what little time I have left in Europe. Cheers to life!
*Note: This article is meant for educational purposes and is based on the author’s personal experiences. It is not to be substituted for medical advice. Please consult your own doctor before changing or adding any new treatment protocols.
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